Hibernation Mode

Sometimes I wish I was a bear. Fighting the cold winter months with tough skin and a thick winter coat, able to last on just the built up Carbs from the previous season. Then my body wouldn't feel the cold affects of winter, and fight back. Every day I suffer the worsened symptoms of these diseases and conditions. Barometric pressure, cold temperatures, secondary illness from a lowered immune system, and working at a ski resort part time are all factors that make winter a miserable time for me. I have a lot going on in my life, with thinking about a career and juggling friends, work, school, health, animals, volunteering, and so much more. Opportunities are being brought up to me by the day, and I have to choose which ones are worth the fight to attain a better future. With all the stress of my life, its hard to imagine I can physically handle anything more without collapsing. However, on top of it all there is typical teenage drama that every one goes through at some point in their life with dating, friends, and lack of true friends. I'm finding myself living on a prayer, but I hope this year will be the end to that, and I can live freely for once since childhood. Six years of being sick is around the corner, and I just want it to all go away.